Summer

Our summer classes were already started and i have the
feeling of too much tardiness. Ang init! tapos mafefeel
mong kau lang tao sa skul. Sa nagyon, although kilala ko
na un karamihan sa klase, uncomfortable na naman ako sa
kanila. ewan ko lang kung bakit. siguro dahil sa
kakaumpisa lang nga ng summer tapos new friends and new
classmates na naman - although kilala ko nnman sila -
bagong pakikisama ulit at bagong paraan ng
pakikipagkasundo sa kanila, or should i say bagong nica
nanaman ang ipapakita ko or makikita nila sa akin.
during the previous sem, on our community, i could say
that i have changed. i was able to change my personality,
my self-esteem as well as the way i talk and communicate
with my classmates. and with that change, i could say that
it totally make my self-esteem high and be confident in
everything i do unlike my 1st yr to 2nd yr 2nd sem stay in
LPU. that change was influenced by my peers-my classmates
and for me with my peers during 2nd sem, i have found the
comfort, trust and satisfaction of having friends within
the school.

by this summer class, i hope i can also be more
comfortable and be truly i am when i am with them.
actually, what hinders my personality is what i see my
friends think of me. my self-esteem lowered when they
think that i am not that good, i have no right to speak up
some important things, also some right to speak and make
some jokes, and the like. also, i think what hinders me is
my insecurity to some of them - to be honest, insecure
with those grade conscious students - the scholars.
although i always tell myself that we were just equal and
i can prove that i can beat them, still the word scholar
always made it best. kaya naman, the feeling of regretness
always comes to my mind but still i accept what i have
done and try not to feel bad about what ive done wrong.
Going back to the summer classes, hmmn. i think di pa
talaga ako masyadong nakakapagmove-on with my schedule and
as always, the feeling na bumabagal ulit ung oras dahil
sira na ulit yung time frame mo at dapat mo nang baguhin
dahil may new schedule ka na. and i hope mag-enjoy naman
ako this summer, i hope maging maayos pa din ung mga
grades ko and i know eventually, makkapagmove-on na ko sa
schedule pati na rin sa mga classmates ko ngayon.
however, natatawa na lang ako pag naiisip ko yung mga tipo
ng professor na meron kami. feeling ko parang napakabait
nila sa amin at parang nasa isang seminar lang kami, the
only thing that gives me challenge and fear is only when
they give quizes and exams, the rest parang wala lang.
naisip ko to dahil sa mga pinapakita ng mga prof ko
ngayon.. hmmm. ay may biglang pumasok sa utak ko.. i dont
want to say anything na lang kasi baka mabago at
mabaligtad pa pagdating ko ng next level.. heheh.. basta
masasabi ko napakafriendly ni mam sipin, iniisip niya
talaga kung ano yung mas mapapadali sa amin at mas
makapagbibigay sa amin ng saya at pag-asa when it comes to
studies... heheh. i love it!.. sana lahat ng prof ganon..
hehhe..

ayan.. mju nabunutan na ako ng tinik ngayon kasi nasabi ko
yung ibang gusto kong sabihin at may nakausap at
napaglabasan na ako ng saloobin. sa ngayon, nakakondisyon
na ko pra mag-aral ng nutrition at makapagadjust sa bago
kong environment sa klase (although di naman totally
nag-iba, ung feeling lang na bagong section and so bago
friends, bagong pakikitungo at bagong personality na naman
ata).. Naiiba-iba tlaga ang personality when there's new
things that comes to your life> tingin ko naman hindi,
kasi kung ano ka un talaga ang mapapakita mo at makikita
nila sayo, do therefore di ka nagbabago.. un nga lang...
hmmn. (ay wag nang kunontra pa, basta kung ano ka un ka
tlaga, di mo na kailangan magpretend ng kung anu man..
ok??)

hehehehe..

"personality mode nanaman!"

heheh.. ciao!