a girl climb up in a mountain. she did lot of hardworks to be on top. suddenly, there was a storm and thunder and lightning and the girl was about to fall. the girl realized that she is about to fall. after realizing the possibility of falling, she thought that all her hardworks can be turned to nothing - all in trash and be wasted.
moral lesson:
dont be too arrogant. if you did a lot of works just to present something correct and you found it definitely right compare to others, dont assume that it is all right. because when the judgement comes, the very first level that needs to be justified and should be correct might be wrong which will surely made the next level and the whole work WRONG!
never assume too much!, always put you feet on the ground.
Friday, January 18, 2008
Friday, January 11, 2008
comment - multiple personality
a copy from the comment of shermin in yahoogroups.
whoa.. *nose bleed* ang haba ah.. natural lang na malito ka sa agemo.. stress lang yan.. hehe.. well, yung sinasabi mo na iba ka sabahay at sa school, tama, dahil sa environment yun, pero mali na ka-plastikan yun. ganito yan, yung actions na ginagawa mo,unconsciously yun, meaning ginagawa mo siya ng automatic. akala molang, hindi ikaw yun, pero lahat yan, personality mo. ok, nalilitoka dahil marami kang iniisip masyado. 30% yung unknown area mo, itcould mean anxieties. may mga insecurities ka siguro, or otherpersonal problem. mababang confidence at kung anu-ano pa. hindi kokasi masyadong alam yung ugali mo kaya hindi ko masabi. kung hindilang bawal, ikukuha sana kita ng personality test eh.. kasi kahetkonti marunong naman ako mag-interpret, yung minor details lang.sayang. pag may available copy na ako, kahet photocopy lang, ipa-pa-test ko sayo. hehe.. pero the best thing to do is analyze yourself.obserbahan mo lang yung sarili mo, sabi mo iba ka sa school, gaanokaiba pag nasa bahay ka? mas maingay ka ba sa school? hindi ka baclose sa pamilya mo? may galet ka ba kahet kaninong party (schoolfriend, family member)? compare mo yung differences, tapos later onmaiintindihan mo na rin kung bakit ka ganun pag andito ka or kungbakit sila ganun.. mga ganung bagay.. honestly, ang hirap magbigayng mga perceptions dito eh.. dapat personal na ginagawa toh paramagkaintindihan tayo eh.. hehe.. anyhoo, yan lang muna angmaitutulong ko.. sa monday may personality test daw ulet kami,hehe.. try kong i-gets yung interpretation nun. hehe. nga pala, ican administer a personality test or two. pero hindi ako magalingmag-interpret. hehe.. pag may time tayo pareho, we'll check it out.=) yown!-shERmz-
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sabi nga pala ng prof ko, anxieties lang yan.. hehe.. lahatdumadating sa point na yan, ang kaibahan lang eh kung paano mo siyaiha-handle. stressful talaga ang college life kaya ganyan. teka, anoka ba pag kasama mo kami? pag kasama mo yung klasmeyts mo? eh sapamilya mo? baka naman, ganyan ka lang kasi sociable ka, you can bewith any kind of person. hehe..magkakaanak sila? i dont think so.. they cannot PRODUCE their OWN.ampon, hindi kanila yun, blood is thicker than water. pano pagbiglang binawi yung bata? tsaka, one thing, it won't last forever,ngayon siguro feel na feel ng mga gays ang isa't isa, eh pano bukas?kunwari, isang guy and gay, pano pag nakahanap ng girl yung guy?iiwan na niya yung gay?sabi nga pala ng prof ko, sorry sa wordings ah.. takpan niyo na langmata niyo.. eto na, yung mga bakla, maaaring gusto nilang mga babaedahil ang perception ng society sa beauty ay women. perhaps gustodin nila ng atraksyon sa pagkakaroon ng boobs or whatever. sabi rinniya, walang lesbian, bakla lang ang meron. parang defense mechanismlang yung pagiging lesbian nila, baka naging man hater na sila kasinaloko sila o kung anu-ano pa. one more thing, pag ang babaenakakita ng isang erect na penis, automatic ang response, mag-iinityun, and basa na.. hehe. parang natural response yun eh. pero sacase ng bakla, kahit may nakahubad na babae, walang erection yun.except lang sa mga bi ah.. sabi ng prof ko yan.. sori sa mga salita..hehe.. hust sharing.. baka makatulong..-shERmz-
Thursday, January 10, 2008
GUIDELINES FOR THIS YEAR
01.09.08
GUIDELINES ON HOW TO BE AN EFFECTIVE AND PROGRESSIVE PERSON
1. Stop making yourself worst.
2. Do a lot of readings, dont let your mind be in vacant which will tend you to think of too much wasted thoughts.
3. Be happy. Enjoy life to the fullest.
4. If you did something, never regret. Remember its you the one who decides.
5. Be yourself. If you want some change, make it or do it.
6. Accept you faults. But dont make/do too much mistakes.
7. Dont be too lazy. Your rest time should be atleast 30 minutes to 1 hour. (sleeping hours)
8. If ever you need to use the computer, do browse (friendster, yahoomail, groups, chat) for only one hour. Never exceed to one hour. Use the computer as needed.
9. Make your time worthy.
10. Texting especially to y, should be for atleast 2 days for every 4 moths. If you want/ need to use cellphone, use it as needed not just for pleasure, flings or just for own happiness, or whatever worthless things.
11. If you want some change, make sure you can stand for it and make sure that you can do it.
12. Study seriously. But if you found yourself being suffocated, slow down, take some rest, relax, look for friends who'll make you happy then enjoy what you are doing. Again, never regret.
13. If something is bothering you, let it be expressed. Make some blog, speak to a friend or relax. Making blog should be atleast 1-2 hours.
14. Have the motivation to study. after taking rest, do the assigned works and the requirements that needs to be done.
15. Dont be too arrogant. Always put your feet on the the ground. Trust God in whatever you do. Have the faith in Him. Always put into your mind that God is everywhere, He sees you when you are down, He sees you when youre up, He sees everything in you, so be careful in everything you do. Always thank God for all the blessings He gaves and for ALL.
16. Dont be too plastic. If you dont want, never pretend that you want it; if it is bad, dont pretend that it is good, just to please other. Stand for what you think.
1DO THESE RULES OR ELSE YOU'LL BE ON THE WRONG PATH.
GUIDELINES ON HOW TO BE AN EFFECTIVE AND PROGRESSIVE PERSON
1. Stop making yourself worst.
2. Do a lot of readings, dont let your mind be in vacant which will tend you to think of too much wasted thoughts.
3. Be happy. Enjoy life to the fullest.
4. If you did something, never regret. Remember its you the one who decides.
5. Be yourself. If you want some change, make it or do it.
6. Accept you faults. But dont make/do too much mistakes.
7. Dont be too lazy. Your rest time should be atleast 30 minutes to 1 hour. (sleeping hours)
8. If ever you need to use the computer, do browse (friendster, yahoomail, groups, chat) for only one hour. Never exceed to one hour. Use the computer as needed.
9. Make your time worthy.
10. Texting especially to y, should be for atleast 2 days for every 4 moths. If you want/ need to use cellphone, use it as needed not just for pleasure, flings or just for own happiness, or whatever worthless things.
11. If you want some change, make sure you can stand for it and make sure that you can do it.
12. Study seriously. But if you found yourself being suffocated, slow down, take some rest, relax, look for friends who'll make you happy then enjoy what you are doing. Again, never regret.
13. If something is bothering you, let it be expressed. Make some blog, speak to a friend or relax. Making blog should be atleast 1-2 hours.
14. Have the motivation to study. after taking rest, do the assigned works and the requirements that needs to be done.
15. Dont be too arrogant. Always put your feet on the the ground. Trust God in whatever you do. Have the faith in Him. Always put into your mind that God is everywhere, He sees you when you are down, He sees you when youre up, He sees everything in you, so be careful in everything you do. Always thank God for all the blessings He gaves and for ALL.
16. Dont be too plastic. If you dont want, never pretend that you want it; if it is bad, dont pretend that it is good, just to please other. Stand for what you think.
1DO THESE RULES OR ELSE YOU'LL BE ON THE WRONG PATH.
multiple personality
just wanna answer my previous question..
as i read my book in psycho.. natural lang daw pla ang pagkakaroonng mutiple personality.. ung tipong iba ka kapag nasa skul, kapagkasama mo yung mga friends mo and other friends and kahit kapag nasabahay ka.. kasi one of the factors that affects our personality isthe environment or the people around us.. we tend to be what theypressume or whatsoever they see on us...kaya naman we act on the waythey pressume and act the way we want them to see.. but as we knowourselves, parang iba yun sa totoong tayo base na rin sarili natingpag-iisip.. (second voice: ibig sabhin may pagkaplastic ka pla?,kasi ginagawa mo lang ung isang bagay dahil yun ung nakaugaliannilang makita sau and gusto mong makita nila yon sayo.. pero angtotoo di naman ikaw yun pag nasa harap ka ng ibang tao).. hah? anggulo.. hehehe. tama ba?...
as i evaluate myself, i take for example the johari window..
25% Public area (i know myself and others know)
30% Private area (i know myself but others dont know)
15% Blind area (i dont know myself others know)
30% UNKNOWN (i dont know myself others dont know)
that's what constitute my self-concept.. but that is not factual..haha.. how did i assume that i have those percentage in thosearea....?--only from what do i feel.. i want a factual basis.. yungtipong survey tapos kung ano yung kinalabasan, may meaning taposmalalaman mo nlang.. yun nga yung ikaw.. yung ganon bah...hahahah.. anu na ba tong pinagsasabi koh../??
im still in the midst of reformation and searching the real me.. hahaha.. lakas ng tama ko!! hehe
as i read my book in psycho.. natural lang daw pla ang pagkakaroonng mutiple personality.. ung tipong iba ka kapag nasa skul, kapagkasama mo yung mga friends mo and other friends and kahit kapag nasabahay ka.. kasi one of the factors that affects our personality isthe environment or the people around us.. we tend to be what theypressume or whatsoever they see on us...kaya naman we act on the waythey pressume and act the way we want them to see.. but as we knowourselves, parang iba yun sa totoong tayo base na rin sarili natingpag-iisip.. (second voice: ibig sabhin may pagkaplastic ka pla?,kasi ginagawa mo lang ung isang bagay dahil yun ung nakaugaliannilang makita sau and gusto mong makita nila yon sayo.. pero angtotoo di naman ikaw yun pag nasa harap ka ng ibang tao).. hah? anggulo.. hehehe. tama ba?...
as i evaluate myself, i take for example the johari window..
25% Public area (i know myself and others know)
30% Private area (i know myself but others dont know)
15% Blind area (i dont know myself others know)
30% UNKNOWN (i dont know myself others dont know)
that's what constitute my self-concept.. but that is not factual..haha.. how did i assume that i have those percentage in thosearea....?--only from what do i feel.. i want a factual basis.. yungtipong survey tapos kung ano yung kinalabasan, may meaning taposmalalaman mo nlang.. yun nga yung ikaw.. yung ganon bah...hahahah.. anu na ba tong pinagsasabi koh../??
im still in the midst of reformation and searching the real me.. hahaha.. lakas ng tama ko!! hehe
Sunday, January 6, 2008
out-of-my-mind
wow. as of now, i finished reading all the thoughts that i wrote here last year and i cant imagine that somehow i can express my thoughts through writings!.. i like it.. very much!..
well.. as i've said.., we're already in the road of 2008, and i am so confused on what will happen for this year...
kakastart lang ng klase namin last thursday, and i feel so tired pa rin coz i wasnt able to take a long sleep during the christmas vacation because im in the market helping my mother selling fruits, and we were blessed because naging maayos naman ung pagtitinda namin and unexpectedly, naubos lahat ng fruits namin during the last hours of 31st of December... i was thinking then why do people in the Philippines have a tradition of collecting circle fruits when the new year comes.. anyway.. that's the first time my mom encountered having empty store for the last hours of the year.
01.06.08 2pm
and by now, sobrang nabubulabog ang isip ko.. i dont know why.. i want to release this kind of feeling.. this kind of mentality. grabeh.. feeling ko sasabog na ung utak ko dahil sa halo-halong ideas na nakikipagunahan para mabasa ng utak ko.. mababaliw na yata ako, or should i say.. malala na ang kalagayan ko.. hmmn.. as of now i cant identify all ideas inside my mind, but ill try.. first, i am thinking of he yesterday's topic of our group in Logic.. we will have a debate on finals and the group choose to discuss "is same sex marriage should be legalized in the Philippines", i thought i had the group where in the members are quite not good, and still i cant prove if my perception is right because i do not know and see them doing the debate. anyway, in this topic i belong to the affirmative side.. and what really bothered me was my co-affirmative members. they are all bisexual.. why did i choose to be on their side while im not sure in my identity. yes, i know im a girl but i cant understand myself. during this hour together with these bisexual classmates, i thought im also a bi., but i cant really said that i am.. i want to but i cant at this time. maybe time will come that i can prove that im a certified bi.. then also, what bothered me was the thought of why am i so happy whenever i speak to my exbf-lucky., i think im really a girl whenever i speak to him, but when i stand in the room where there are my college friends i think im not the "NICA" my highschool friends knew. am i a being having many personality..?, i dont know. that's why these ideas make me so confused. so much - where in my head turns to gray and empty coz of too much thinking., also, early this morning when i about to wake up, i thought of things that will make me certified bi.. and i remember that my classmate said to me that he will look for a girl for me. shocks!, during the time he said that to me, it was ok then.. but i realized that it is really hard to have an on-the-spot relationship.. i mean.. you tend to know this person because you yourself know that this is because this person will be my partner(gf/bf).. and its really hard because ive already felt whats the feeling. so a while ago, my mind turns to april - my classmate, or should i say the girl i wanted because, when im with her i can tell all my feelings and be as sabog as i can or be makulit all in all and she makes the same way.. inshort im very comfortable with her. so because of that i think i like her to be my gf., BUT.... i think i cant!.. i dont know how to court a girl and i am afraid to what will be her feeling if i tend to do so.. natawa nga ako sa sarili ko kanina kasi napabangon ako dahil sa naisip ko na gumawa ng letter para ligawan siya pero naudlot din yun kasi nagbago yung isip.. ewan ko kung matutuloy pang sulatan ko siya.. or sabihin nlang sa kaniya ng personal.. ewan ko na lang.. basta im so afraid on what will be her reaction and also natatakot ako na mareject niya ako at dahil sa ginawa ko masisira yung friendship namin.. i dont want that to happen, kaya sobrang pinagiisipan ko kung tama ba tong gagawin ko.. kaya siguro sumasakit tong ulo ko..
next is nakausap ko si lucky kagabi and di ko maipagkakaila na masaya ako pag nakakausap ko siya.. it doesnt mean anything but im just happy lang talaga.. that's all.. no one can make me happy sa text even my high school friends, my other ex.. they cant.. but except on lucky.. siya lang talaga.. i dont mean anything basta sinasabi ko lang talaga na iba yung feeling kapag siya yung katext and kausap ko sa phone.. aun... tapos lam mo ba inadd ko yung gf niya sa friendster gamit yung account ni anje.. pero di niya inaaccept.. bkit kaya?.. i have the feeling na si lucky yung nag ddeny dun.. nakakaasar.. bakit nila nirereject,.. nakakaasar tuloy.. gusto ko na lang tuloy malaman kung ano password ng dalawang yun para di nila ako napapansin.. pero.. palagay ko ako rin yung my problema kasi bkit ko pa ba sila pinapakelaman?.. hmmn.. di ko naman sila pinapakealaman, gusto ko lang naman malaman yung laman nung profile nung gf nia.. yun lang.. walang ibig sabihin un para sakin.. (pero pakkialam pa din yung gnagawa mo).. ok, cge pakkialam na kung pakikialam.. basta walang ibig sabihn yun para sakin.. yun lang un!.. (ah ganon?).. uu. ganun na nga..
anyway.. hehe. the ( ) marks are the voices i heard deep in myself.. hehe.. do i still have the feelings for him?.. i think i dont have na... -- yan, that is next to the ideas that bothers me.. i know in myself na wala na akong feelings sa kanya.. na friends na lang talaga kani and i dont expect anything from him.. besides i dont want him to be with me again kasi i dont want my life to be miserable again... (eh pero bakit nakikipag-usap ka pa din sa kaniya and di lang yon.. pumapayag ka pa sa mga gusto niya and worst is sumasama ka pa sa kaniya kapag inalok ka niya na makipagkita.. pinuprove mu lang na easy to get ka pagdating sa kaniya.. napakacheap mo!) ouch!.. bkit nga bah?.. di ko din alam eh.. basta ang masasabi ko lang gusto ko din naman kasi kaya pumapapayag ako.. (and so, bakit mu gusto?)... hmmn. ewan koh., cguro dahil sa nasasabik pa rin ako sa pagmamahal ng isang jowa.. or should i say sa kaniya.. (hmm. myakz. ganon? bkit di ka na lang maghntay and ireject and mga gsto nia).. nirereject ko naman kaya lang pabago bago yung isip ko, un nga ung nakakaasar eh.. tsk., i have my boundaries and i must set limits from him.. i should follow kung ano man yung napagkasunduan namin ng sarili ko about sa kaniya and sa mga bagay na di maganda para sa kin.. kaya should go back again to what should i be.. i must CONTROL myself so that nothing bad will happen.. and also.. im going back to where i should be.. in school and in the room studying our lessons.... whew..
so now i think i have the motivation to study.. kanina kasi badtrip ayaw ng utak ko and siguro ayaw ko din.. ill be going to church kaya i should sign out.. kanina i told ange that ill be going to their house after i went to church and said to myself na kkwentuhan ko siya pra nman mabawasan yung mga nasa isip ko.. pero di ko alam kung makukuwentuhan ko pa siya kasi ayaw ko nang alalahanin or balikan pa yung mga naisip ko at mga naisulat ko dito.. di ko din alam.. tingnan na lang natin...
bye,...
3pm
well.. as i've said.., we're already in the road of 2008, and i am so confused on what will happen for this year...
kakastart lang ng klase namin last thursday, and i feel so tired pa rin coz i wasnt able to take a long sleep during the christmas vacation because im in the market helping my mother selling fruits, and we were blessed because naging maayos naman ung pagtitinda namin and unexpectedly, naubos lahat ng fruits namin during the last hours of 31st of December... i was thinking then why do people in the Philippines have a tradition of collecting circle fruits when the new year comes.. anyway.. that's the first time my mom encountered having empty store for the last hours of the year.
01.06.08 2pm
and by now, sobrang nabubulabog ang isip ko.. i dont know why.. i want to release this kind of feeling.. this kind of mentality. grabeh.. feeling ko sasabog na ung utak ko dahil sa halo-halong ideas na nakikipagunahan para mabasa ng utak ko.. mababaliw na yata ako, or should i say.. malala na ang kalagayan ko.. hmmn.. as of now i cant identify all ideas inside my mind, but ill try.. first, i am thinking of he yesterday's topic of our group in Logic.. we will have a debate on finals and the group choose to discuss "is same sex marriage should be legalized in the Philippines", i thought i had the group where in the members are quite not good, and still i cant prove if my perception is right because i do not know and see them doing the debate. anyway, in this topic i belong to the affirmative side.. and what really bothered me was my co-affirmative members. they are all bisexual.. why did i choose to be on their side while im not sure in my identity. yes, i know im a girl but i cant understand myself. during this hour together with these bisexual classmates, i thought im also a bi., but i cant really said that i am.. i want to but i cant at this time. maybe time will come that i can prove that im a certified bi.. then also, what bothered me was the thought of why am i so happy whenever i speak to my exbf-lucky., i think im really a girl whenever i speak to him, but when i stand in the room where there are my college friends i think im not the "NICA" my highschool friends knew. am i a being having many personality..?, i dont know. that's why these ideas make me so confused. so much - where in my head turns to gray and empty coz of too much thinking., also, early this morning when i about to wake up, i thought of things that will make me certified bi.. and i remember that my classmate said to me that he will look for a girl for me. shocks!, during the time he said that to me, it was ok then.. but i realized that it is really hard to have an on-the-spot relationship.. i mean.. you tend to know this person because you yourself know that this is because this person will be my partner(gf/bf).. and its really hard because ive already felt whats the feeling. so a while ago, my mind turns to april - my classmate, or should i say the girl i wanted because, when im with her i can tell all my feelings and be as sabog as i can or be makulit all in all and she makes the same way.. inshort im very comfortable with her. so because of that i think i like her to be my gf., BUT.... i think i cant!.. i dont know how to court a girl and i am afraid to what will be her feeling if i tend to do so.. natawa nga ako sa sarili ko kanina kasi napabangon ako dahil sa naisip ko na gumawa ng letter para ligawan siya pero naudlot din yun kasi nagbago yung isip.. ewan ko kung matutuloy pang sulatan ko siya.. or sabihin nlang sa kaniya ng personal.. ewan ko na lang.. basta im so afraid on what will be her reaction and also natatakot ako na mareject niya ako at dahil sa ginawa ko masisira yung friendship namin.. i dont want that to happen, kaya sobrang pinagiisipan ko kung tama ba tong gagawin ko.. kaya siguro sumasakit tong ulo ko..
next is nakausap ko si lucky kagabi and di ko maipagkakaila na masaya ako pag nakakausap ko siya.. it doesnt mean anything but im just happy lang talaga.. that's all.. no one can make me happy sa text even my high school friends, my other ex.. they cant.. but except on lucky.. siya lang talaga.. i dont mean anything basta sinasabi ko lang talaga na iba yung feeling kapag siya yung katext and kausap ko sa phone.. aun... tapos lam mo ba inadd ko yung gf niya sa friendster gamit yung account ni anje.. pero di niya inaaccept.. bkit kaya?.. i have the feeling na si lucky yung nag ddeny dun.. nakakaasar.. bakit nila nirereject,.. nakakaasar tuloy.. gusto ko na lang tuloy malaman kung ano password ng dalawang yun para di nila ako napapansin.. pero.. palagay ko ako rin yung my problema kasi bkit ko pa ba sila pinapakelaman?.. hmmn.. di ko naman sila pinapakealaman, gusto ko lang naman malaman yung laman nung profile nung gf nia.. yun lang.. walang ibig sabihin un para sakin.. (pero pakkialam pa din yung gnagawa mo).. ok, cge pakkialam na kung pakikialam.. basta walang ibig sabihn yun para sakin.. yun lang un!.. (ah ganon?).. uu. ganun na nga..
anyway.. hehe. the ( ) marks are the voices i heard deep in myself.. hehe.. do i still have the feelings for him?.. i think i dont have na... -- yan, that is next to the ideas that bothers me.. i know in myself na wala na akong feelings sa kanya.. na friends na lang talaga kani and i dont expect anything from him.. besides i dont want him to be with me again kasi i dont want my life to be miserable again... (eh pero bakit nakikipag-usap ka pa din sa kaniya and di lang yon.. pumapayag ka pa sa mga gusto niya and worst is sumasama ka pa sa kaniya kapag inalok ka niya na makipagkita.. pinuprove mu lang na easy to get ka pagdating sa kaniya.. napakacheap mo!) ouch!.. bkit nga bah?.. di ko din alam eh.. basta ang masasabi ko lang gusto ko din naman kasi kaya pumapapayag ako.. (and so, bakit mu gusto?)... hmmn. ewan koh., cguro dahil sa nasasabik pa rin ako sa pagmamahal ng isang jowa.. or should i say sa kaniya.. (hmm. myakz. ganon? bkit di ka na lang maghntay and ireject and mga gsto nia).. nirereject ko naman kaya lang pabago bago yung isip ko, un nga ung nakakaasar eh.. tsk., i have my boundaries and i must set limits from him.. i should follow kung ano man yung napagkasunduan namin ng sarili ko about sa kaniya and sa mga bagay na di maganda para sa kin.. kaya should go back again to what should i be.. i must CONTROL myself so that nothing bad will happen.. and also.. im going back to where i should be.. in school and in the room studying our lessons.... whew..
so now i think i have the motivation to study.. kanina kasi badtrip ayaw ng utak ko and siguro ayaw ko din.. ill be going to church kaya i should sign out.. kanina i told ange that ill be going to their house after i went to church and said to myself na kkwentuhan ko siya pra nman mabawasan yung mga nasa isip ko.. pero di ko alam kung makukuwentuhan ko pa siya kasi ayaw ko nang alalahanin or balikan pa yung mga naisip ko at mga naisulat ko dito.. di ko din alam.. tingnan na lang natin...
bye,...
3pm
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